My boyfriend died a few weeks ago. So I haven’t been on here.

I won’t be coming on here anymore.. I don’t know how to feel anymore. I lost such a huge part of me and nothing makes sense.

RIP, babe.

I will always love you.

10/14/1990-10/14/2012

Monday Nov 11 @ 07:58pm with 1 note
It amazes me how much a person can bear, hold in, and hide; and how well we learn to hide it from people. 

It amazes me how much a person can bear, hold in, and hide; and how well we learn to hide it from people. 

Tuesday Oct 10 @ 07:47pm with 2 notes

Tuesday Oct 10 @ 02:26am with 12,467 notes
How I Celebrated my Birthday this Year

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Monday Oct 10 @ 08:09pm with 351 notes
Monday Oct 10 @ 04:51pm with 298,656 notes

What the fuck is wrong with me….?

I have the most loving, patient, and understanding boyfriend and I’m so mean to him sometimes- and I wish I wasn’t. I don’t know how someone like him could ever love me the way he does, or be there for me the way he is. I push him away, and he pulls me closer. And I don’t push him away because I hate him, I push him away because I wish the whole world would just go away sometimes, and just leave me alone.

I just want the ground to swallow me whole sometimes. 

I feel like my depression takes the course of a circle- going away, tricking me into thinking I’m finally normal, then coming back, breaking me down to pieces. I wish I could erase from my mind and body what happened to me 4 years ago, and I wish that the piece of shit that caused all of this, would just vanish like he never even existed. 

I wish I would have had the balls to put him in jail like he deserved to be. I don’t know if I will ever have the balls to be okay with what happened. It’s been almost 5 years, and I still have nightmares. I still feel so much guilt that it literally hurts my chest. 

Monday Oct 10 @ 04:50pm with 0 notes

iamthefirstballerina:

A bruise is a disruption in the blood flow. It pools under the surface and refuses to leave for who knows how long. Bruises are not only painful when touched, but are visible and distracting to a third party. Disruptive, lingering, painful and salient. Hearts don’t break they bruise. Mya is seasonally affective and today is overcast and icy

Sunday Oct 10 @ 10:19pm with 3 notes
Sunday Oct 10 @ 10:05pm with 4,115 notes

Sunday Oct 10 @ 09:58pm with 93,763 notes

Click for the most hilarious, relatable gifs.

Click for the most hilarious, relatable gifs.

Sunday Oct 10 @ 09:56pm with 26,107 notes
OH MY FUCKING GOD, WHERE CAN I GET THIS?!

OH MY FUCKING GOD, WHERE CAN I GET THIS?!

Sunday Oct 10 @ 09:51pm with 3,215 notes
Me. My hair is so long, finally… like, super long.

Me. My hair is so long, finally… like, super long.

Saturday Sep 9 @ 05:12pm with 3 notes
I’ve officially lost 23lbs

And dropped 3 pant sizes. At the moment, I am wearing a pair of Jeans that I haven’t been able to wear since I was 14. It’s been 7 years since I’ve been this size. I can’t even believe I’ve gotten so far.

Saturday Sep 9 @ 03:15pm with 0 notes
This is my workout face.

This is my workout face.

Saturday Sep 9 @ 06:54pm with 1 note
chrishemsperf:

chrishemsperf:

I’ve been laughing at this for 50 years

each note is another year i will be laughing at this

chrishemsperf:

chrishemsperf:

I’ve been laughing at this for 50 years

each note is another year i will be laughing at this

Saturday Sep 9 @ 03:01pm with 455,599 notes
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